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Monday, July 6, 2009

I heard that people who talked to themselves are crazy. So if you're talking to your body parts, you must be other-worldy, psychotically delusional

Perhaps it's the slow pace and reluctance for school to begin. Or maybe the humdrum of the hot days rolling by briskly without a sigh.

Today as I cleaned and straightened my clothes drawer, I came upon a long-sleeved shirt. Nothing special. Only a frill around the bottom and the "Old Navy" logo on it. And it was baby blue, my old favorite color. Yet suddenly a wave of emotions washed over. Not nostalgic or anything like it. It was a peaceful emotion. A refreshing feeling, like I was seeing something interesting for the first time. I guess the closest analogy I think of is like... I don't know... seeing a smiling newborn. I never felt this, especially when looking at a raggety old shirt that was way too small for me. But it's an emotion I'll tuck away and examine again when I'm feeling depressed.

So along the theme of clothes, comes the story about my shorts. I was oddly ecstatic about taking a shower today. I usually consider showers and other necessities, like sleeping and eating, mindless routine work that I wished I could get away with in an instant. But today I was happy because I would be able to wear my new white cotton long-shorts for the first time. Hurrah! I'm one of those people who gets the most excited about trivial things. As I was pulling on those shorts, I looked at myself in the mirror, something I rarely do, and that was all it took to drain out all the happiness and turn that smile upside down. Cuz there was undeniably a layer of wobbliness growing around my stomach. It wasn't large (yet). But oh you know how that stuff grows.

"Go away, stupid fat. I just got new clothes," I whimpered. Then I quickly put on my other clothes and ran out of the bathroom.

So my pigout adventure this summer has come to an end. Perhaps it has something to do with all the reading on vampires and werewolves, who ate their prey voraciously. The only person I can see being happy about this would be my father, glad that his daughter would not wear any tight or slightly cut-off, midriff-showing tops for a few weeks.

Fortunately, there are no more anecdotes of the day relating to any other articles of clothing. But I will start anew beginning tomorrow with more jogging, badminton, and biking (YES PEOPLE, I LEARNED THIS SUMMER HOW TO RIDE A BIKE!! AND I'M ACTUALLY NOT TOO SHABBY AT IT! Guess I do have some Davis blood in me after all.).


xoxo,
A

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Thursday, June 25, 2009

RevNONelation

Something happened that never happened before. I didn't think it would ever occur, and yet here it is biting my thoughts and parching my throat. While I sip my strawberry smoothie, I feel a teensy bit of gratuity toward the pink drink. At least one food item doesn't make me want to barf today.

I had sesame bread and shrimps for lunch today. Before you get too bored, I'll say now that these two items were pretty much the essences of the story. I downed the bread no problem, but as I ate each shrimp, a feeling came over me I never experienced when eating food I didn't dislike.

Nausea.

For the first shrimp I ate, I could feel the deep disgust as I burrowed my teeth into the flesh. And before I could gag, I'd swallow it quickly, thinking that it would be the panacea to this horror and everything was just part of my imagination. Wrong move. The next three weren't better and I gave up, settling on eating watermelon for the remainder of my snack.

I'm not vegetarian and had never been. Not because I particularly liked non-veggies, but the fact that I would probably die in less than a week. I disliked bean products (eg: tofu, bean sprouts, red/green bean) and the majority of the green veggie group. And water too, just fyi. So it would only make sense to balance my nutrition a bit with meat and seafood.

But I can't understand why I felt so much disgust today. Worse, I couldn't purge it and go eat something else. I'm not brave enough to do that. So I'd rather sit here and cover the flavor by guzzling the pink drink.

I have to rethink my diet.

Notes:
My deep condolences and best wishes to Michael Jackson and his family.

A

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Just Luck

Ba. Eight. That was the number of times it took to repaint the layers of "Petal Power" shade on the fingernails of each hand. That's not even including the number of times it took to redo each nail.

Is it really instilled in all Asians to be perfectionists, even up until now?

Well, at least my nails turned out decently. Maybe the final product is worth the frustration.

Sidenote: I think everyone knows my embarrassing commencement story by now, so I'm not going to post it. Unless you request it and give me a new bottle of nail polish, to replace mine that's almost empty.

xoxo,
A

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Monday, June 1, 2009

Update

hallo hallo!! It's been awhile = ) The last semester has been crazy full of random projects, papers, videos, and late night dancing. But I have not forgotten my dear blog home. More letters, rants, and GOSSIP! Juicy, juicy!

1) Layout update
yay! I wanted to change things up a bit. Hope it looks sorta decent, with my lack of HTML and Photoshop experience, neither of which I ever learned. I am actually one of the very few of my generation to have never touched Photoshop. I've managed to learn how to edit videos and music, but no... no Photoshop in my book = ( perhaps some wonderful and very patient would teach me someday?

2) Finished with school... sorta
Well, for starters... I GRADUATED!! I finally received my diploma last weekend, and got the $200K worth piece of paper (chucked somewhere, abandoned in my room), which is the pure and essential reason why I've pressed on through all the agony in these last few years. I thought this semester would be my easiest, but somehow it always gets harder. Or I get lazier and other things got in the way. I did turn 21 after all last year. This semester consisted of the most all nighters yet, when I started out sleeping early, and then at the end of the semester, the cue was when the birds were chirping while the garbage truck pulled outside my window to brush up the dumpster. Fortunately, my classes all started at noon, except the Mushrooms and Molds class at 11 that I was never on time to. But alas, I am finally done.

Well done for the summer. Back to MEng degree in August. And where else, but Cornell! I can just imagine it...

Cornell: "Congrats you're done!!

hahaha... just kidding, we're not done with you juuuust yet!"

Me: ="(

It wasn't such a dreadful experience as I've made it out in this blog. But honestly, there comes a time when enough is just plain old bageled enough. I guess there were other options at the time, like waiting a couple more months to start work or going to GTech for an MS instead. I guess that story can come later on. But in essence, my heart lies at Cornell. So I won't be missing those gorges and that giganto slope just yet.

3) Where to go next?
Going to DC!! yup, I'm headed back to the east coast tomorrow! I'll be staying till Thursday, going through my medical/polygraph exams. If you're in the area, lemme know!

It's 3 AM already @____@ old bad habits come back when you're so focused on something. I guess I'll save my ORIE graduation ceremony story for tomorrow.

Sleep tight = )

xoxo,
A

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Friday, December 26, 2008

Another break

Completely finished: 1
Applications finished but not the essay part: 3
Not done at all and I'm screwed on: 2

yup, sounds like a time for another procrastination hobby. yaaaaa, who's in? = D

Go to link: http://dumptrumpet.com/?v=6156%3Cbr%20/%3E

YES, IT'S A CHRISTMAS TREE! AND LOOK, IT'S A FUN GAME FOR ENGINEERING AND GEEKS OUT THERE! who says we have no lives? we can light up christmas trees! = )

or can we?

"The object of the game is to connect all the wires and lightbulbs to the electrical source. To rotate the bulbs and wires, just click on them. Just start at the bottom of the tree and work your way up."

Have funn = D

And hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas = )

xoxo,
ALOG

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