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Thursday, December 25, 2008

sleepless in california

I'm not supposed to be here and it's almost 4 in the morning. And I have major hard-core graduate school + job applications I have procrastinated till this break.

But it's raining. Really really hard.

And it's SOOO LOUD and it's SOOOO COOOOOLD.

Anyways.

Since I came home, the topic of humanity came up a lot, the extent of it and whether it really exists. It becomes more apparent in dire situations, such as the crappy state our nation is in now. People reach out their hands to help their peers and we contribute what we have to the best of our efforts. It's interesting to observe just how complex human nature is. Sometimes I even think it's a forced action and being "humane" isn't part of human nature at all. My mother questions me on mine, on how I interpret people and use that to gauge my actions and then it bleeds into the subject of self honesty. I choose to not give off everything I have. It's not smart and it makes the entire world so much less interesting. Yes, it's had its consequences for me, but there are some losses that are worth it to achieve something greater. Can you honestly say that you haven't thought that way at least once before? She doesn't like how I handle some situations and I can't say she's wrong. But I think we're all entitled to freedom in thinking about things our own ways. The essence of humanity is that each one of us has a different way to go about it.

Another dose of AliceMalice.

Two things I learned from Cornell this semester:

1. A system is only as complex and deep as you interpret it.

2. Whether you want to know how full the glass is, you first and foremost pour the water into the glass. You.

I'm not going to understand this tomorrow morning. Attempt 2 at sleeping now.

Posted by Alice at 3:37 AM

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