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Sunday, October 4, 2009

Why am I thinking about this at 2 AM, when I have an 8 AM class tomorrow?

Normally, I try to veer from the emo side in blogs, because I know they sound sick and annoying. I come back after a few days, and usually question how I even wrote something so depressing, and then delete the post. But there are those days when you're just down and angry at the world, and just want to shut yourself from the world around you. So you turn to your only private and free corner where you can find a small window to try to reason things out.

One of the types of people I respect the most are the people who don't judge others. It's easier said than done, since deep down, we all have pent up human emotions. But we can try to find another way to deal with it. On the other hand, an exception is when it comes to people who complain about themselves constantly. So it kind of hits a collision point for these two different traits, and I constantly wonder myself how non-sensical I am.

Like all peeves and praises, there are reasons behind them. Personally, I have known people who have had some of the worst experiences in life, and are struggling to survive day by day. It hurts me especially since some of these people are very close to me, and there's not much I can do from where I am now. So when people are seriously complaining about petty things, it makes me think how narrow-minded and selfish they can be. When they're ranting once in awhile, it's fine, but when they think they are going through the worst thing in the world, then they should find a more valuable and efficient way to solve their own problems, as opposed to wasting everyone's time. A good friend of mine said that you should not seek attention that way and feel a need for people to sympathize and baby you more. I know these type of people have their own stories and troubles that they've gone through, but that's more of a reason not to act inappropriately.

I apologize for the sudden pessimistic post that has veered from the actual intentions of my blog. I haven't posted any rants like this since high school, when I experienced the little dramas at an all-girls school. While this is not a big deal at all to most people, I take it personally. I obviously rant about my coursework and activities, but there's a limit. To make excuses is simply weak, and each one of us is able to contribute just as much as anyone else can in this school. You should feel no need to make people feel sorry for you. If that is the case, you will not survive in the real world.

- AC

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